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Booker Paradox – Behind The Wall

Wednesday, September 7th, 2016

Hello! Welcome to the Booker Paradox! I’m Brett Booker and I am currently writing this from the confinement of a jail cell. In fact, by the time you have read this, this post has been hand written, mailed out of this facility and transcibed onto this very own website. You might be asking, if I’m just locked up, what is the purpose of all this? Great question!

You see, I believe that creativity and imagination are central to individual and social freedom, and that everyone has something to offer, being wisdom, skills, knowledge or maybe even experiences that can improve your life. Therefore, through this website, I wanted to share stories of my past and chronicle my journey through the Federal Prison System (or BOP), to hopefully inspire your mind, body, and soul. As I spend the next decade or so in prison, I plan on sharing my day to day experiences, knowledge and wisdom gained from other prisoners (being politicans, law enforcement, white collar criminals or even cartel/mafia members), random essays on topics I find important, philosophical ideas, and much more!

How I Came Up With The Website Name

I came up with the name Booker Paradox after reading an article about Admiral Jim Stockdale. The article, titled “The Stockdale Paradox”, shared Stockdale’s remarkable experience while imprisoned for eight years in, “Hanoi Hilton”, a prisoner-of-war (POW) camp. He was the highest ranking officer in the camp, all during the height of the Vietnam War. He was tortured repeatedly, with no release date and didn’t even know if he was going to make it out alive.

Although the conditions in which I am held are in no comparison, his story was a huge inspiration to me and I could relate to what he went through. Reading it put everything into perspective and absolutely humbled me! Therefore, I decided to use the name, Booker Paradox.

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What Got Me Here

Now, this nightmare of an experience began on September 10th, 2014, when the DEA (Drug Enforcement Administration) conducted a raid on my home and then my officed located in downtown Omaha, above an art gallery. The local news station reported it like this:

http://www.ketv.com/news/synthetic-lsd-a-deadly-new-drug-in-omaha/28077978

Although almost all of the “facts” in this story are wrong and didn’t discuss how I primarily sold weed and MDMA, I understand there were no ill-intentions, for they just wanted to inform the community about the horrible new drug I regret distributing. You’ll notice that everything in the story, from how the drugs are used, where the DEA found the evidence, and where I obtained the supply from, through court documents and my personal experiences, that the story was a misrepresentation of what is truly going on.

I did not reach this point overnight or through one bad decision. Rather, through a series of bad decisions, I became a totally different person. After my arrest on September 10th, 2014, I sat in jail for a few months completing an unrelated state sentence. Once completed/served, I was granted pre-trial release from my federal charges (essentially supervised bond). I did well for the next 11 months, until a new sting operation at a restaurant led to my arrest on November 24th, 2015.

The addiction I had to the “hustle” per say, was simply too strong. I didn’t plan far ahead, and was imprisoned in the moment, ignoring the immediate dangers. If only I had listened to these wise words, “Look to the end, no matter what it is you are considering. Often enough, God gives a man a glimpse of happiness, and then utterly ruins him.” – The Histories, Herodotus, Fifth Century B.C.

Nonetheless, I’ll elaborate more on this in future posts, given my case is still being litigated in U.S. District Court. All I have to say is that, I never want to relive the moment, or experience the feelings that I felt on November 24th. I was absolutely crushed! Knowing that I had let my family down, made it hard to swallow. So many regrets filled my mind as I stayed in a state of shock. Now, was I not only facing one federal case, but I managed to receive a new case with 9 more federal charges.

That brings us now to this moment, writing this blog post from my jail cell. Currently, it is a daily struggle to maintain a positive outlook on life and keep my head above water. It has helped tremendously in here to use meditation, Rapid Recharge and Tai Chi for stress management. Furthermore, I still believe that everything happens for a reason and spend every chance I get to learn something new. While others in here waste their time, I stay in books and have even learned Spanish.

Going Forward

Marcel Proust summed up how I feel when he said, “We do not receive wisdom. We must discover it for ourselves, after a journey through the wilderness, which no one can spare us, for our wisdom is the point of view from which we come at last to regard the world.”

This quote represents exactly how I feel, for I am discovering new found knowledge and wisdom. My current state of incarceration represents a “a journey through the wilderness.” This experience or journey, is truly something I cannot be spared from and is utterly changing my view of the world. My thoughts and beliefs from last year, for example, are completely different. Furthermore, I believe if the judge knew how much I changed and that I’d never sell drugs again, she would let me go.

Overall, I am excited to see new lines of communication open and give a sneak peak of conditions and daily experiences from Federal Prison. Through this website, I’ll share my journey, the good and the bad. Keep coming back with an open mind and I’m sure you’ll benefit in some way!

 

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